I’m fine.
That’s what you want to hear.
I’m fine.
I’ll say it loud and clear.
I’m fine.
It’s easier this way.
I’m fine.
Pretending everyday.
I’m fine.
It’s normal to wake in tears.
I’m fine.
Haven’t had a break in years.
I’m fine.
Trying to find that level ground.
I’m fine.
Wondering who I hope will stick around.
I’m fine.
Cause that’s the me you want to see.
I’m fine.
But she’s the she I no longer care to be.
I’m fine.
Losing something which never was.
I’m fine.
Just keep going, cause that’s what one does.
I’m fine.
Trying each day to set things right.
I’m fine.
But waking most days too tired to fight.
I’m fine.
Wondering if death came before dawn.
I’m fine.
And if Mom is alive, how to stay kind.
I’m fine.
Cause every day it’s just the same.
I’m fine.
The same recording on endless play.
I’m fine.
While the rest of the world gets on with its day.
I’m fine.
As hair by hair, my years now show.
As lines overtake my burrowed brow.
As my strength builds, then suddenly goes.
As the walls of my home begin to close.
As each day’s remnants turns to dust.
As I do each day what I know I must.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.
I’m fine.